Until today. Today I hit the cake wall. My mind was literally consumed by cake. I had some nuts. Still thought about cake. My Tweets turned into a cake brain filled epic of dullness. In the end, after lunch, I made the trip to a local bakery, bought a brownie and enjoyed every last second of it. Did I want another one? Nope. I could barely get through the first one, and didn't even cry when I accidentally dropped a bit on the floor. It was enough.
Charis also helped me by emailing me and reminding me that having a brownie once a week is fine. After several days of eating well, one brownie isn't going to ruin everything, and that in fact, can help me get over the cake fixation and move on.
I enlisted the help of Charis after my clean eating post last week. He helps people achieve their goals through diet and exercise, but works remotely, mostly via email or video, providing dietary advice and fitness regimes.
He's been amazing at steering me in the right direction of what to eat, and to get me back on the workout train. I did my first one Sunday afternoon and nearly cried at how unfit I've become, but hey, at least I'm making a start. I can email him any questions I have, and he always comes back with a completely supportive, common sense answer.